Thoughts

And once again she sits - wonders, writes, remembering and trying to gather - all the thoughts she has on the subjects of her coming performances.
And the mind works in mysteries ways.
At one moment she thinks of life, asks friends of hers about stages that for them where important. Ask about their memories, what they think determines a life or what determined a life and she askes what they remember of the deceased.
She looks back and think of loved one she lost, due to sickness, mortality, distance and of people who just slowly became friends of the past instead of friends of the present.
She think of all of them and can only smile, cause she know that she has been fortunate to be around some beautiful people in her life: even those who caused her heartaches, distress, sadness and anger - all where they a brick to help her to where she finds herself today.
And as she is satisfied with the result, then how can she be really angry - even if evil was there too?
She always forgave to easy they say, but somehow isn't that what one should do?
she thinks that when she loves, she lives.

And now she will end this... she will leave for the night, turn of the music and get ready for tomorrow....
a day of meetings - friends, work and more work...
She will do what people do, leave her office, do some grocery shopping, the laundry, probably upon returning home, she will once again work an all-nighter as she so often do, because she loves her job, and feel inspired and because there is dead-lines.
Tmrw is a day of rehearsals for NABO as well, a performance to be, which is almost entirely booked - and she feels grateful!

For now goodnight
Julie

It's only when we truly know and understand that we have a limited time on earth -- and that we have no way of knowing when our time is up -- that we will begin to live each day to the fullest, as if it was the only one we had. - Elisabeth Kubler-Ross